I know what the worst night feels like
I had tinnitus years ago, got used to it by accident, and forgot about it for ten years. In April 2020 an ear infection brought it back, and I was terrified I would not be able to habituate a second time. The fear turned into insomnia. I could not sleep for four days straight.
I ended up at a psychiatric hospital for an evaluation, sure my life was over. I was 34. I decided not to admit myself, and I left.
Nobody in that building could fix it, so I had to learn how to do it myself. I stopped fighting the sound and started sitting with it, a few minutes at a time, every day. It took months and plenty of bad days.
Today I sit in a quiet room and what I hear is quiet. The sound is still there if I go looking for it. It just does not matter anymore. I travel the world and I coach people through the same thing.
The Panic Kit is what I wish someone had handed me that first week. Start with the ten minute audio, tonight if it is loud.
